When life goes differently than expected it's confusing, frustrating, and sometimes completely heartbreaking. I didn’t want to write this blog post. I didn’t want to put my very personal business out there for any and all to see, but so many who walk through infertility feel as if they are the only ones. Lost and broken as they watch more and more people around them experience the very thing they long for. Infertility is this thing that so many people suffer through alone, putting on a smile and stuffing away the pain because they believe that nobody else will understand.
I'm writing all of this today to share how life is going differently than I would have hoped for myself and my family. A desire to grow my family and bring children into this world out of love with my husband soon became a diagnosis. Heartbreaking news that becoming pregnant wouldn’t be as easy as it would for most. I quickly began to feel hopeless, alone, sad and unsure of God's goodness. Why was this happening?
We all have hopes and dreams and even expectations for our lives. The truth is that we're not guaranteed anything. The one thing that I can be sure of is that God is good and he has a plan for my life that’s better than anything I could have planned for myself. I can only see the page that I'm currently on, but he knows the rest of the book. Although I don’t like the chapter I am in right now, he has already written a beautiful resolution to my story. He will fulfill His promise that he is good, he loves me, and he knows the desires of my heart.
This applies to anyone in any type of “life looks way different than I would have hoped it would” situation. If you give your struggle to God, if you truly seek His will for your life, it will be better than any story you could have written for yourself (I need to lovingly be reminded of this daily). If you are walking through infertility right now, if you've walked through infertility in your past, or if you walk through infertility in your future, I want you to know that I understand. I am knee deep in the mud of infertility. I am learning to let go of my expectations for how I wanted my life to look and I am learning to find my hope as the creator of the universe writes my story exactly as it should be.
Hard times produce strong people. Hard times draw people closer to one another. Most importantly hard times can grow people closer to God. Struggle is ok. It’s a part of the human experience. Even flowers must grow through dirt to become something beautiful.
1 in 8 couples suffer through infertility. You have no idea what kind of battles people are fighting. Be gentle to one other. Love and pray alongside those who are going through infertility. It makes all the difference.
I'm writing all of this today to share how life is going differently than I would have hoped for myself and my family. A desire to grow my family and bring children into this world out of love with my husband soon became a diagnosis. Heartbreaking news that becoming pregnant wouldn’t be as easy as it would for most. I quickly began to feel hopeless, alone, sad and unsure of God's goodness. Why was this happening?
We all have hopes and dreams and even expectations for our lives. The truth is that we're not guaranteed anything. The one thing that I can be sure of is that God is good and he has a plan for my life that’s better than anything I could have planned for myself. I can only see the page that I'm currently on, but he knows the rest of the book. Although I don’t like the chapter I am in right now, he has already written a beautiful resolution to my story. He will fulfill His promise that he is good, he loves me, and he knows the desires of my heart.
This applies to anyone in any type of “life looks way different than I would have hoped it would” situation. If you give your struggle to God, if you truly seek His will for your life, it will be better than any story you could have written for yourself (I need to lovingly be reminded of this daily). If you are walking through infertility right now, if you've walked through infertility in your past, or if you walk through infertility in your future, I want you to know that I understand. I am knee deep in the mud of infertility. I am learning to let go of my expectations for how I wanted my life to look and I am learning to find my hope as the creator of the universe writes my story exactly as it should be.
Hard times produce strong people. Hard times draw people closer to one another. Most importantly hard times can grow people closer to God. Struggle is ok. It’s a part of the human experience. Even flowers must grow through dirt to become something beautiful.
1 in 8 couples suffer through infertility. You have no idea what kind of battles people are fighting. Be gentle to one other. Love and pray alongside those who are going through infertility. It makes all the difference.